 drugwolf201
Joined: 07/24/2010
Total Posts: 4854
Location: zee trap, nJ | Posted: Sun Feb 12, 03:25AM Post subject:
never heard that song in particular, but its a funny thing that anytime I start to come out of a deep depression or manic episode, I listen to a shit load of Army of the Pharaohs. this song isnt exactly uplifting, but it always lifts my spirits
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dalenixon
Joined: 08/10/2008
Total Posts: 962
Location: sf, ca | Posted: Sun Feb 12, 03:38AM Post subject: things started looking up for me recently so i decided to stop taking my meds. LOL! worst idea of all time. recently started seeing my ex, things were amazing for about a month, and my mom finally got out of the hospital and i was totally piped on life for the first time in years. ex broke it off a week ago, i'm doing therapy twice a week now and i'm back on meds and i'm back to posting in this thread. everyone hang in there | | Back to top | |
dalenixon
Joined: 08/10/2008
Total Posts: 962
Location: sf, ca | Posted: Sun Feb 12, 03:44AM Post subject: 
Last night for some reason, this girl who was the first I ever went on a "date" with came up in conversation. My friend decided to google her and it turns out she's done really really well for herself. She was really cute and a big film fan like me, except she actually went out and did the things she wanted to do, and I on the other hand am a complete and utter failure in every way. I probably could have dated/fucked/whatever this girl, and i couldn't even pull that off at the time because I was too inept to really know what to do at all. She was really attractive to me then but she was one of those girls who just looked kinda awkward and never talked to anyone, and now she's kind of a knockout. I talked to her online for a minute like a year ago and she told me she was in another country on a Fulbright scholarship.
Shit like this just kills me, not only because I kinda dropped the ball on this girl, but because it just reminds me of how I've really done NOTHING with my life and I'll be 29 in like a month. I just live in my own head all day every day.
Woooo guess I'll pour another drink...Saturday night...
the issue isn't the girl man, you're comparing her "success" to your shit, and that's no way to look at things. everyone moves at their own pace, that's one thing i've learned. work on loving yourself for who you are, as soon as you respsect yourself, someone else's shit won't mean shit to you and you won't compare yourself to them. it takes time, but it's the only outlook to have in life. fuck other people, dost thour thing, hang in there. also, i'm 27 and am a broke ass fuckin ese so don't think i'm talking down, we're pretty much in the same situation... | | Back to top | |
dalenixon
Joined: 08/10/2008
Total Posts: 962
Location: sf, ca | Posted: Sun Feb 12, 03:54AM Post subject:
Just had to to one of the harder things I've had to do in my life.
Basically I was seeing a girl for almost 3 years,we broke up and i grew very distant because of my depression I plummeted into because I was broke and had to drop out of college cause I couldn't afford it. She was literally my best friend I've ever had.
Fast forward 2 months to the begging of the month. We start talking again. She comes over one day and tells me she's "seeing" one of my buddies. Makes sense, hes pretty similar to me personality wise and just an overall awesome guy. She says shes after him but still has been feeling tid bits for me. Here's the catch though, hes supposedly still in love with his ex. (irony is just hilarious isn't it)
Fast forward again about 2 about 1-2 weeks I tell her, I will always have feelings for her and legitimately as a friend I want her to be happy and I prioritize that above almost everything.
Within the last weeks she said he's being kinda coming around. So tonight I told him to step up his game and make a move cause she can't wait for ever and i know she wants it to happen.
I'm sorry to drop all this drama bull shit on here but it's literally been one of the hardest 3 months of my entire life.
Any words of advice? Think I did the right thing? B9 board reach out and don't just comment with nonsensical bullshit for once please .
Well, I feel like you really shouldn't have told your friend to step up his game, solely based on the fact that you still have feelings for your ex. I guess it's different for everybody but maybe the healing process would be easier for you if their relationship happened at its own pace rather than you sort of encouraging it. You're doing something very noble by looking out for their happiness, but you should always think of yourself first, and try to avoid things that are going to make you feel like shit one way or another.
I do commend you for being strong enough to accept it though, and it seems like you're still Ice Cold with your ex and your friend, which is something that not many people are capable or willing to do.
seems to me that you're ignoring your own feelings. you still have feelings for that girl, and even though you care about her and want the best for her, you still have to look out for yourself. when it comes to relationships it's not always about being totally selfless doing the "right" thing. involving yourself with her and your friend could make it way harder to get over this shit. you can be still be a nice guy and a good friend without putting yourself in the middle of this situation just sayin. | | Back to top | |
markus aurelius
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Joined: 03/16/2004
Total Posts: 10225
Location: 13204 | Posted: Sun Feb 12, 11:26PM Post subject:
I feel like I want to just jump out of my own skin because I'm so uncomfortable with myself. All the typical little imperfections that normal people can embrace and own, I beat myself up for having and worry myself sick wishing it were different. I hate that I'm not tall enough, I hate my own voice. I don't want to be 30. I look and feel terrible. I'm fucking everything up, I can't write music, I can't do anything. I'm alone and struggling to get through any given day without losing my shit.
im in a weird mood so bare with me on this one. but it sounds like you could be helped greatly by going to your favorite secluded spot and eating psilocybin shrooms.
You can do anything and everything you want to do, it just sounds like you have a lot of insecurities you need to face head on and weed out all that negativity and fear in your life. I've done shrooms once or twice and my view of the world and how i interpret it has completely changed.
the mind is like a puzzle that can never be completed
There's no denying that I have a lot of insecurity, fear, and negativity, but I feel like with my luck I'd be the guy who has a bad reaction to something like that. | | Back to top |  |
Clit Boner
Could probably poke an eye out with those things
Joined: 12/24/2008
Total Posts: 9145
Location: Pitchers of real girls vaginas | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 12:01AM Post subject: I've never done shrooms but i have heard (from some friends that do) that you have to be in the right mindset to do them, otherwise like most other drugs, they will fuck you up.
Since I have no experience with them i don't know how true that would be, but i think drugs are something you have to be careful about, especially if you're thinking on doing them to relieve shit like this. They might just end up making it all worse. | | Back to top |  |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 12:05AM Post subject:
I've never done shrooms but i have heard (from some friends that do) that you have to be in the right mindset to do them, otherwise like most other drugs, they will fuck you up.
Since I have no experience with them i don't know how true that would be, but i think drugs are something you have to be careful about, especially if you're thinking on doing them to relieve shit like this. They might just end up making it all worse.
Indeed.
I'd encourage anyone interested in psychedelic drugs to read this first: http://www.samharris.org/blog/item/drugs-and-the-meaning-of-life/ | | Back to top | |
CK3count
Joined: 12/04/2005
Total Posts: 2813
Location: Michigan | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 01:03AM Post subject: The thing I hate about shrooms is that they last too fucking long. After 2-3 hours I just want it to be done with so I can sleep. | | Back to top | |
deleted scenes
Joined: 01/19/2004
Total Posts: 15784
Location: Seattle | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 01:04AM Post subject: I'm hesitant to delve into psychedelics, for the reasons above.
Shit I've always been too paranoid to even get on antidepressants. | | Back to top | |
CK3count
Joined: 12/04/2005
Total Posts: 2813
Location: Michigan | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 01:49AM Post subject:
The thing I hate about shrooms is that they last too fucking long. After 2-3 hours I just want it to be done with so I can sleep.
Ah shit, I was about to read all that other stuff you typed out.
Yeah. I changed my mind after I posted it. Too many idiots on this board trying to create shit with "send thread". | | Back to top | |
Saulo
Joined: 02/21/2009
Total Posts: 6620
Location: San Francisco  | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 12:01PM Post subject: So I hit a boulder or something in my mind this weekend because I had a constant low mood, in and out of crying all weekend. I thought I had finally beat this thing because I was pretty happy for about a month. I kept making myself feel worse by reminding myself that I am depressed so close to Valentine's day. I am simply not motivated to do anything today. I'm skipping class and gonna lie face down on my bed for 12 hours.
I had mainly good things to report to him last session too, probably because I was high mooding like a mofo. He works for a free clinic he gets monitored and none of his clients are supposed to be long term. I mentioned that I wanna stick around a little longer to make sure this wasn't some fluke peak in my mood, I still don't know if my good period was a base line or a long manic episode. Time to journal what's going on. | | Back to top | |
ChelseaW
Joined: 11/22/2007
Total Posts: 1079
Location: fenway | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 12:10PM Post subject: I've wanted to try something like that just as a last resort. But given my luck it would go horrifically wrong.
But speaking of that shit, anyone ever heard of this place? I saw a documentary about it and its fucking nuts. And its free to anyone who feels they need to go. They basically give you the drugs and a place to do them and guide you through the experience. It's specifically for people who are fucked in the head.
http://shimbre.org/index.php | | Back to top | |
ASHTABULA
Joined: 05/02/2010
Total Posts: 1535
Location: yesteryear | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 12:53PM Post subject:
Just had to to one of the harder things I've had to do in my life.
Basically I was seeing a girl for almost 3 years,we broke up and i grew very distant because of my depression I plummeted into because I was broke and had to drop out of college cause I couldn't afford it. She was literally my best friend I've ever had.
Fast forward 2 months to the begging of the month. We start talking again. She comes over one day and tells me she's "seeing" one of my buddies. Makes sense, hes pretty similar to me personality wise and just an overall awesome guy. She says shes after him but still has been feeling tid bits for me. Here's the catch though, hes supposedly still in love with his ex. (irony is just hilarious isn't it)
Fast forward again about 2 about 1-2 weeks I tell her, I will always have feelings for her and legitimately as a friend I want her to be happy and I prioritize that above almost everything.
Within the last weeks she said he's being kinda coming around. So tonight I told him to step up his game and make a move cause she can't wait for ever and i know she wants it to happen.
I'm sorry to drop all this drama bull shit on here but it's literally been one of the hardest 3 months of my entire life.
Any words of advice? Think I did the right thing? B9 board reach out and don't just comment with nonsensical bullshit for once please .
Well, I feel like you really shouldn't have told your friend to step up his game, solely based on the fact that you still have feelings for your ex. I guess it's different for everybody but maybe the healing process would be easier for you if their relationship happened at its own pace rather than you sort of encouraging it. You're doing something very noble by looking out for their happiness, but you should always think of yourself first, and try to avoid things that are going to make you feel like shit one way or another.
I do commend you for being strong enough to accept it though, and it seems like you're still Ice Cold with your ex and your friend, which is something that not many people are capable or willing to do.
seems to me that you're ignoring your own feelings. you still have feelings for that girl, and even though you care about her and want the best for her, you still have to look out for yourself. when it comes to relationships it's not always about being totally selfless doing the "right" thing. involving yourself with her and your friend could make it way harder to get over this shit. you can be still be a nice guy and a good friend without putting yourself in the middle of this situation just sayin.
Maybe a little late, but man I think we've all been here. Don't tell your friend to step his game up, however you're strong. Don't deal with this shit. Cut them both out. | | Back to top | |
CycoFishHead
Joined: 12/01/2007
Total Posts: 8959
Location: MA | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 04:41PM Post subject: Went to the doctor today, got a prescription for Zoloft. I've never taken anti-depressants before. The only thing I'm worried about is smoking weed while taking it. Almost everything online says its okay but the only shit I could find is forums on marijuana.com and stupid shit like that. | | Back to top | |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 05:06PM Post subject: Everyone I know who took Zoloft and was a weed smoker said smoking weed while on Zoloft gave them a really bad headache. | | Back to top | |
titsonabicycle
Joined: 01/14/2011
Total Posts: 488
Location: Regina | Posted: Mon Feb 13, 08:14PM Post subject: Head and neck are constantly in pain, entire body shaking uncontrollably even when I make eye contact with people. Called in sick to work and might as well quit, cause I am just a paranoid wreck when I'm working with other people. I'm holding out for counselling, still on a fucking waiting list. I hope anybody else who knows what this is like to have a completely destroyed psyche is doing better. I looked at that Shaman website, that would be a cool vacation if I had the money. | | Back to top | |
crobss
Joined: 10/24/2009
Total Posts: 2067
Location: New Brunswick/Clark, NJ | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 12:53PM Post subject:
I've never done shrooms but i have heard (from some friends that do) that you have to be in the right mindset to do them, otherwise like most other drugs, they will fuck you up.
Since I have no experience with them i don't know how true that would be, but i think drugs are something you have to be careful about, especially if you're thinking on doing them to relieve shit like this. They might just end up making it all worse.
I did shrooms two months after my ex broke up with me and I was still very upset about it. Then, during the trip she decided to text me after not hearing from her since the break-up and things went downhill very quickly. | | Back to top | |
markus aurelius
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Joined: 03/16/2004
Total Posts: 10225
Location: 13204 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:05PM Post subject: Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me. | | Back to top | |
AnAndrew
Joined: 03/15/2011
Total Posts: 431
Location: Then, Omaha. Now, Lexington | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:19PM Post subject:
I've really done NOTHING with my life and I'll be 29 in like a month. I just live in my own head all day every day.Woooo guess I'll pour another drink...Saturday night...
I can say the exact same thing about myself. I need to get a move on somehow. | | Back to top | |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:26PM Post subject:
Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me.
Eh, who cares man? Dealing with other people's bullshit is a fucking drag anyway. Worry about yourself, not some other broad. Waste of time and energy. | | Back to top | |
markus aurelius
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Joined: 03/16/2004
Total Posts: 10225
Location: 13204 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:38PM Post subject:
Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me.
Eh, who cares man? Dealing with other people's bullshit is a fucking drag anyway. Worry about yourself, not some other broad. Waste of time and energy.
I find that most of what I do is. I want to snap out of it and just take care of myself, but often I find I can't do it no matter how much I try. I feel hopeless. | | Back to top | |
fist shaker
half head, full shred
Joined: 06/14/2007
Total Posts: 6231
Location: southern california | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:47PM Post subject:
Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me.
Eh, who cares man? Dealing with other people's bullshit is a fucking drag anyway. Worry about yourself, not some other broad. Waste of time and energy.
I find that most of what I do is. I want to snap out of it and just take care of myself, but often I find I can't do it no matter how much I try. I feel hopeless.
are you in good health? if you arent, start with some simple things. eat moderately healthy, take vitamins/supplements daily(a sublingual b complex and fish oil supplement will do wonders.most americans eat horribly and dont get the basic nutrients they need from food, so vitamins are essential), get outside, go for a walk or run or bike ride..something to get your blood flowing. stay busy whether its working or doing something that you love. STICK WITH IT | | Back to top | |
markus aurelius
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Joined: 03/16/2004
Total Posts: 10225
Location: 13204 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:54PM Post subject:
Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me.
Eh, who cares man? Dealing with other people's bullshit is a fucking drag anyway. Worry about yourself, not some other broad. Waste of time and energy.
I find that most of what I do is. I want to snap out of it and just take care of myself, but often I find I can't do it no matter how much I try. I feel hopeless.
are you in good health? if you arent, start with some simple things. eat moderately healthy, take vitamins/supplements daily(a sublingual b complex and fish oil supplement will do wonders.most americans eat horribly and dont get the basic nutrients they need from food, so vitamins are essential), get outside, go for a walk or run or bike ride..something to get your blood flowing. stay busy whether its working or doing something that you love. STICK WITH IT
Yeah, I take vitamins/supplements. I don't have a terrible diet but it could stand to be more healthy. I've gained a few pounds though and have a fat gut, so I know exercise would help that AND depression. I get home and I'm so drained just from going out into the world that all I want is to crawl back into bed. | | Back to top | |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 02:56PM Post subject: Exercise before work. You won't give a shit if you're tired at work cuz you gotta be there and fuck a job anyway. | | Back to top | |
fist shaker
half head, full shred
Joined: 06/14/2007
Total Posts: 6231
Location: southern california | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 03:13PM Post subject:
Yeah, I take vitamins/supplements. I don't have a terrible diet but it could stand to be more healthy. I've gained a few pounds though and have a fat gut, so I know exercise would help that AND depression. I get home and I'm so drained just from going out into the world that all I want is to crawl back into bed.
well youre headed in the right direction fuckin ese, thats a solid start. make it a habit to exercise even if youre tired or lazy or just not feeling it. i never really feel like exercising so i usually end up forcing myself to do it, when i feel like a million bucks afterwards i try to hold on to that feeling so the next time i dont feel like getting started, its in the back of my mind as an incentive. its natures anti-depressant, and food is natures anti-anxiety tool. its seriously amazing how much happier you can be by making a couple simple changes in your life. you just gotta stick with it and never give up | | Back to top | |
JOe...
Doesn't have a facebook
Joined: 05/29/2011
Total Posts: 1631 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 03:40PM Post subject:
Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me.
Eh, who cares man? Dealing with other people's bullshit is a fucking drag anyway. Worry about yourself, not some other broad. Waste of time and energy.
I find that most of what I do is. I want to snap out of it and just take care of myself, but often I find I can't do it no matter how much I try. I feel hopeless.
are you in good health? if you arent, start with some simple things. eat moderately healthy, take vitamins/supplements daily(a sublingual b complex and fish oil supplement will do wonders.most americans eat horribly and dont get the basic nutrients they need from food, so vitamins are essential), get outside, go for a walk or run or bike ride..something to get your blood flowing. stay busy whether its working or doing something that you love. STICK WITH IT
Yeah, I take vitamins/supplements. I don't have a terrible diet but it could stand to be more healthy. I've gained a few pounds though and have a fat gut, so I know exercise would help that AND depression. I get home and I'm so drained just from going out into the world that all I want is to crawl back into bed.
my diet and nutrition for me is paramount above all else. I notice when I eat shitty food, i feel tired and weak, if I eat processed food, the next day i tend to think about suicide and have an overall shitty opinion of myself. Also, my face gets bloated and I have a junk food hang over. Generally if my diet is lean grilled meat, fruits, veggies and complex carbs my energy levels are through the roof and I feel like an animal that can take on the world.
currently eating a turkey sandwich, with avacado, hummus and wheat bread.
My exercise consists of intense gym training 3 times a week, running bleachers, basketball and surfing. I usually stay active 5 or 6 days a week.
if i take vitamins, watch my diet closely and exercise 5 days a week, im a very happy, strong, well adjusted person. If i eat lots of fast food and sit around, i have the lowest opinion of myself and dont want to be alive.
if anyone needs help on the nutritionor exercise part, I do part time personal training work for side money. I tend to really enjoy working with people who deal with serious depression, its really rewarding. | | Back to top | |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 03:45PM Post subject:
Exercise before work. You won't give a shit if you're tired at work cuz you gotta be there and fuck a job anyway.
That's right, fuck a job - I'm unemployed.
Okay, so am I. So do it when you wake up before you do anything else. Do pushups, situps, hindu squats, run... you dont necessarily need to go to a fuckin gym and be surrounded by people cuz I get how much that sucks and don't wanna do it either.
Wake up, do that shit, get in the shower, eat a bunch of food. You will feel at least a little bit better. | | Back to top | |
AnAndrew
Joined: 03/15/2011
Total Posts: 431
Location: Then, Omaha. Now, Lexington | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 03:59PM Post subject:
if anyone needs help on the nutritionor exercise part, I do part time personal training work for side money. I tend to really enjoy working with people who deal with serious depression, its really rewarding.
Ok, I'll bite. For eating more healthy, what suggestions dost thou have for buying good food and setting a meal plan? I'm not a good cook and when I buy good food I burn myself out on it because I usually just buy the same things over and over without any variety. | | Back to top | |
markus aurelius
b9's funniest poster
Joined: 03/16/2004
Total Posts: 10225
Location: 13204 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:08PM Post subject: There are fundamental flaws in me that I feel like I'll never be able to ignore even if I'm in better physical health. | | Back to top | |
fist shaker
half head, full shred
Joined: 06/14/2007
Total Posts: 6231
Location: southern california | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:11PM Post subject:
There are fundamental flaws in me that I feel like I'll never be able to ignore even if I'm in better physical health.
if you work on your physical health, your mental health will follow suit. the two are more related than most people realize. even if being in good physical health doesnt cure you of whatever youre going through, it will at least put you in a clearer, more stable state of mind so you can start to figure out and combat what's eating you | | Back to top | |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:24PM Post subject: Also, since youre unemployed and I am going to assume on unemployment, go volunteer somewhere.
Animal shelter, hospital, homeless shelter, whatever. Just go do something. Give yourself some measure of routine.
Snapping myself out of my "wake up, sit around, watch tv, eat, watch movies, eat, watch sports, sleep" routine has helped a great deal for my mental health. Shit is far from perfect or healthy but it's an improvement at least. | | Back to top | |
markus aurelius
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Joined: 03/16/2004
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Location: 13204 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:37PM Post subject:
There are fundamental flaws in me that I feel like I'll never be able to ignore even if I'm in better physical health.
if you work on your physical health, your mental health will follow suit. the two are more related than most people realize. even if being in good physical health doesnt cure you of whatever youre going through, it will at least put you in a clearer, more stable state of mind so you can start to figure out and combat what's eating you
I don't know. I'm so ugly and I don't think I can combat it short of radical surgery. I'm too quiet no matter how hard I try to be outgoing. I'm 30 and still trying to get my undergrad; this is my fifth college, I've dropped out twice from anxiety and I'm embarrassed as shit to explain the timeline to people. | | Back to top | |
Lobsterdog
Lobsterdog 2: Son of Lobsterdog
Joined: 12/22/2010
Total Posts: 19532
Location: corgi friday | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:45PM Post subject:
There are fundamental flaws in me that I feel like I'll never be able to ignore even if I'm in better physical health.
if you work on your physical health, your mental health will follow suit. the two are more related than most people realize. even if being in good physical health doesnt cure you of whatever youre going through, it will at least put you in a clearer, more stable state of mind so you can start to figure out and combat what's eating you
I don't know. I'm so ugly and I don't think I can combat it short of radical surgery. I'm too quiet no matter how hard I try to be outgoing. I'm 30 and still trying to get my undergrad; this is my fifth college, I've dropped out twice from anxiety and I'm embarrassed as shit to explain the timeline to people.
You don't have to explain shit. Just say you had medical issues. | | Back to top | |
JOe...
Doesn't have a facebook
Joined: 05/29/2011
Total Posts: 1631 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:45PM Post subject:
if anyone needs help on the nutritionor exercise part, I do part time personal training work for side money. I tend to really enjoy working with people who deal with serious depression, its really rewarding.
Ok, I'll bite. For eating more healthy, what suggestions dost thou have for buying good food and setting a meal plan? I'm not a good cook and when I buy good food I burn myself out on it because I usually just buy the same things over and over without any variety.
Always make your own food, look through the paper and find out which market is having a sale on chicken breast or turkey, or whatever lean meat you like, buy it in bulk. Grill all of it at once and keep it in the fridge, and just eat it throughout the day til its gone.
My day meals usually breaks down like this.
Wake up- quick oats with 2 packets of splendid for taste and a banana
meal 2- 2 slices of wheat bread, 4 oz of turkey
meal 3- 4-8 ounces of grilled chicken breast, baked potato and veggie.
meal 4-same as either meal one or meal 2
meal 5-post work out shake
i eat a lot of fruit and nuts throughout the day, almonds, cashews, bananas and oranges. I dont worry about calories but just by eating clean it will help you drop a ton of fat.
If you work and have a job make all your meals the night before, its so much easier to eat healthy when you have healthy food readily available.
Sometimes you gotta break down and have a burger or a pizza, thats fine, but eat that burger from a place like in n out that doesnt loads its food with chemicals and preservatives. Stay away from fast food chains, MacDonald, burger king and taco bell, its trash
As far as variety, buy a variety of fruit and veggies, lean steak, lean chicken, turkey. The way I look at nutrition im not eating to enjoy myself, im eating to sustain my mind and feed my body the proper fuel. But they're really a million different things you can do with grilled chicken and grilled fish, look up different recipes. if you have to go out to eat stick to places like sushi. | | Back to top | |
JOe...
Doesn't have a facebook
Joined: 05/29/2011
Total Posts: 1631 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 04:48PM Post subject:
There are fundamental flaws in me that I feel like I'll never be able to ignore even if I'm in better physical health.
if you work on your physical health, your mental health will follow suit. the two are more related than most people realize. even if being in good physical health doesnt cure you of whatever youre going through, it will at least put you in a clearer, more stable state of mind so you can start to figure out and combat what's eating you
I don't know. I'm so ugly and I don't think I can combat it short of radical surgery. I'm too quiet no matter how hard I try to be outgoing. I'm 30 and still trying to get my undergrad; this is my fifth college, I've dropped out twice from anxiety and I'm embarrassed as shit to explain the timeline to people.
I just crept your facebook, youre not ugly fuckin ese. I know a lot of uglier fuckin eses that go out and get laid all the time, go get some confidence. | | Back to top | |
fist shaker
half head, full shred
Joined: 06/14/2007
Total Posts: 6231
Location: southern california | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 05:00PM Post subject:
I don't know. I'm so ugly and I don't think I can combat it short of radical surgery. I'm too quiet no matter how hard I try to be outgoing. I'm 30 and still trying to get my undergrad; this is my fifth college, I've dropped out twice from anxiety and I'm embarrassed as shit to explain the timeline to people.
youre not an ugly fuckin ese my man, what youre feeling is most definitely part of depression. maybe now isnt the right time for you to be in college. i went for two years and had to drop out for the same reasons. i was working full time while going to school every night M-TH, coupled with dealing with some heavy family stuff and i just lost it...had a minor breakdown and turned into an anxious mess. maybe take some time off to find some even ground and go back later when you can handle it. forcing yourself through school when youre not ready for it is a big waste of time and money. put your happiness first | | Back to top | |
PimpChimp
Joined: 11/08/2008
Total Posts: 62
Location: Belgium | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 06:01PM Post subject: Went to the doctor yesterday and he prescribed me Venlafaxine. Just felt like there's no future for me, don't have the courage or energy to change my life around. Quit my job in construction because it wasn't satisfying, couldn't focus on it either and started making too many mistakes. No selfesteem at all, so I started drinking like hell but that didn't turn out very good either. Had my ex on the phone a few weekends before and heard her male dickhead friends making fun of me so I went to the bar they were at (which was "closed") and kicked in the glassdoor to get in. Too bad the cops just passed by and got charged for vandalism and resisting arrest. I should stop drinking but I can't help it. Hope the meds will work, started taking them today. Friday is also my first meeting with a psychologist, wonder what that'll give.
Moving back to my foster parents home because I feel like a wreck and fuck everything up. Financially I'm back on a all time low, when I was on crutches (because a machine ran over my leg, couldn't work 8 months and have a %5 handicap) I got in a fight and hit him on his head with one of them which costed me €1400. The damn door will probably cost about €700 because it's some kind of special glass. Swore myself I'd never be like my bioligical family (mother is in an psychiatry, father drank himself to death and my sister has borderline) but the older I get the more I see myself ending the same way, and I'm not strong enought go get over all this shit and move the fuck on.
I keep having moodswings from feeling sorry to myself to beeing so frustrated and hating the world. | | Back to top | |
ChelseaW
Joined: 11/22/2007
Total Posts: 1079
Location: fenway | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 07:51PM Post subject:
Anytime I hear or read anything about someone in a relationship or someone getting laid, I freak out, I get this empty, hollow feeling and a tightness in my chest, and become insanely depressed realizing how remote the possibility of someone being into me is right now. I get angry at myself. I fucking hate myself. It's like I step out of my own head, I see this piece of shit loser, and I have to be him and it kills me.
I'm really not just saying this, and I've probably said it before, but it fucking breaks my heart to know you're so sad. It makes me sad because you make so many people here smile and laugh. There is literally nobody here who is funnier or whose posts I enjoy reading more than yours. Honestly, there have been days where I've felt so fucking awful, and then I come across a joke of yours and crack up and it turns my entire day around.
And, believe me, I know, the loneliness is crushing. And the self hatred it creates perpetuates it. It's a very vicious cycle. I isolated myself and pushed everyone away from me, then I sit home every night and wonder why I'm so alone. I don't even know where to start learning how to meet people or make friends. I haven't had a stable friendship in years, and its not like any guy wants to date someone who can't even get out of bed most days of the week. I've tried so fucking hard to get through school, twice, and each time my health just goes straight down the drain. I try to take small steps, but even those fail because the exhaustion and everything else is completely overwhelming. I don't know. Someday things will get better. | | Back to top | |
Ensign
worst 2011 poster
Joined: 01/24/2011
Total Posts: 1371
Location: Silver Spring, MD/Washington, DC | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 08:19PM Post subject: I can't be the only person that feels like a fucking monster that can't do anything right or get cut a break. | | Back to top | |
JamesO)))
Joined: 11/08/2007
Total Posts: 920
Location: Riverside, CA | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 08:31PM Post subject: This last week I've realized that its an everyday struggle to control my depression. Especially during valentines because I want to be extremely pessimistic but, I haven't. I've had these days that are great but then I have these days where I just hate myself and I just want to hurt myself.
I've been workin out a lot and dieting and I've been pretty good about it. Work is great. But then I get hit with these feelings of self-loathing and emptiness. Then I wonder if this whole happiness thing can every be achievable for myself.
My therapist gave me some homework and I'm supposed to write down what would make me happy and why I can't have close relationships with anyone. It's been a week and it's still hard for me to get through it.
Fuck. | | Back to top | |
Humanity, I Hate You
Joined: 04/10/2011
Total Posts: 530
Location: KY | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 08:54PM Post subject: I'm having a lot of anxiety lately about the future, and trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I don't know what I want to do, and I never really have. I talked to my therapist about it today, I started to realize that a lot of it stems from me over analyzing all of the cons in any situation, but never really being able to realize the pros. They always seem intangible and far-fetched while the negative aspects are much more realistic, and because of that I just don't do anything. She gave me some homework to do before next session, filling out a paper about finding meaning in my life and decision making. I just don't know. I have horrible self esteem from it all. I've been talking to this girl I like for a little while, and I'm always nervous of what she thinks of me. If she looks down on me. She's applying for med school this summer, and I'm just excited because I got a minimum wage job that broke my nearly year long unemployment streak. My therapist does think I'm making progress though, so I guess that's something. | | Back to top | |
dalenixon
Joined: 08/10/2008
Total Posts: 962
Location: sf, ca | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 09:16PM Post subject: posting in this thread on valentine's day | | Back to top | |
douchechills
Joined: 11/08/2009
Total Posts: 1166 | Posted: Tue Feb 14, 09:30PM Post subject: I had a terrible night on saturday. I did a bunch of drugs, most of which i can't even name and so did the girl i was dating. I woke up only to find her in bed with another guy. This has just exacerbated my dejected state, and i have an essay due tomorrow i haven't started. | | Back to top | |
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